I encountered love. My heart does skip a beat.
When I was child, I adore looking at the sky wondering how this all creatures in the earth have made. My mind was full of astonishment and curiosity. The plants that need water and sunlight to grow and be nourished by fertilizer. Why birds are chirping? Why the grass green? The woman’s womb and the fetus inside, the anatomy and physiology itself, even that thing. Huh. I want to know how the world works and why. Full of never-ending questions I was that needs an answer. Am I the only inquisitive child during those days? I guess not, maybe you too. I am astounded everything was perfectly created.
As I was growing up, many questions are still unanswered. I learned everything, the photosynthesis of the plants, my biology professor taught me and how the earth orbits the sun, my science professor imparted me. How the cycle of a fetus to a full grown newborn baby, my maternal and child in Nursing showed me when I was in my college years. But still science is not enough, it seems for me that I am looking for truth, something to believe in. I went to college, graduated with a Bachelor’s degree and a Registered Nurse. On my third year in my college years, something happened that my life turn to 180 degree. I was mislaid. A hard-headed daughter who didn’t know how to supervene what my dad said and had an outrage behavior with my mom. Someone is missing in my life. I am not contented. I am not happy. When you examine my heart, it is full of pent up bitterness, anger and pain. I want to forgive for those people who hurt me on the past but my heart is impoverished. My heart is cast downed. My heart is full of anguish. My heart is unforgivable. I want to surpass and get rid of all the pain in my heart but I don’t know how to do so. I used to drink alcohol for a couple of months. How my life become slightly mess.
Until One evening came, as I was walking alone on the hall of my College University, just studied in our library for a quiz hereafter, I saw my friend at the Chapel and asked “What was that?” People are happy, refreshing to see that smile in their face. My friend explained and I felt a bit anxious. Then, she got my contact number. Few weeks and months after, I became an active member of that organization. Until flabbergasting day came, the Right One is moving with my life. August 28, 2011, the exact date when I said yes to Him. Yes, I accepted You. Yes, I will follow You. Yes, I will surrender all to You. Reading bible makes my questions answered. Everything in this earth, Our Creator is utterly and entirely was perfect made. Every day, I am praying to God, ‘change my heart, Father’. Embracing change is not easy. It takes time.
“Change is not an event with an exact start and stop point; it’s a process.”
I am living my life to the full . My anger turns to delight. My sadness turns to jubilant. My heart is full of brightness and joy. A loving daughter and sister now. A woman always wearing a happy face. A woman who doesn’t know how to be anger nor easily angered. A healed heart perhaps. A Christian, volunteer Pre-school teacher at Victory Batangas and a disciple maker. My life turns to 180 degrees but still much floss to be change in a process.
Now, I’m walking with The One in my journey, growing my relationship with Him. I’m hungry and thirsty with His love. I wants to seek more of Him. I’m standing firm with my faith. “Jesus found me. I fell in love. A new heart I have. His words remind me how He loves me. I love Him, too. His wisdom. His love. His unfailing l love. As I’m waiting for my future love, I am maximizing the time to serve Him. He is the Only man who will not leave me either hurt me. A man who will stay with me forever. I am a sinner but I’m forgiven. I’m not worthy but He loves me so much. I feel complete, happy, and contented.” aforementioned by the woman.